If you hear the word ‘autism’, what is the first image that springs to mind? That will depend on your exposure, won’t it.

I was in my 50s when I was diagnosed in 2023. Autism or signs of autism start to show from around 2 years old, but when I was that age, autism was viewed very differently. PubMed is a database of clinical publications and research. Clinical journals from as ‘late’ as 1978, the year that I started in senior school, were still using words phrases like ‘severely dsyfunctional’ or ‘retarded’. Yet, in primary school, where we were streamed according to academic ability, I was in the top set. When I started in my primary school, I remember being tested for my reading ability at age 8. The school used a series called “Through the Rainbow”. At age 8, I was on to the top books in the range, the Silver and Gold readers, which were not to be taken home as the child was believed to be advanced enough to not need practice.

So, how did that equate with words like ‘retarded’? Quite clearly, it did not, particularly considering that I passed my 11+ test at the age of 10, and started senior school a year early, one of five girls in my year.

From age 12, I had a list on my bedroom wall of what was required to be a solicitor. My parents had decided that would be my career. I was a good girl, quiet and studious, and quite different to my ‘bold as brass’ sister. I didn’t question that path. I didn’t question when we ‘chose’ our O levels, which leant heavily on Arts, with no s wince whatsoever. My A-levels were chosen from that same list. I remember I was sitting in the barbecue area of the pub car park, when I opened the results envelope, knowing I needed two Bs and one C to study Law at Leicester.

Well, I didn’t go to Leicester.

I recall feeling that I had disappointed my parents in a big way, and that it was my fault. Can you imagine what it feels like to sit down for a History exam and be unable to remember a single date?

Of course now, we would refer to this as burnout. But back then?

One year later, one Linguist Secretarial course later, and I was ready to enter the workplace at the Faculty of Classics in Cambridge.

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It’s January. Time to knock some stereotypes on the head. Will I make a difference? Who knows? Perhaps if even a fifth of the people following my Blog shared this post on social media … Will you be amongst that group?

Shall we start by making one thing absolutely clear: I AM AUTISTIC. It is not something from which I suffer, and it is not preventable, caused by vaccines or my personal favourite, because I hadn’t been a good (insert religious persuasion here).

My brain is wired differently. A computer running Linux and a computer running Windows can both run a word processing program, but they do so slightly differently.

So what does it mean, being autistic? What springs to mind when you say the word? In my sister’s case, it was something shameful. Yet my father, who was in the throes of dementia, was cool with the fact that I was the same daughter he knew.

For me? I don’t like sudden noises, or shrill noises. Imagine if you had a screaming playground of kids around you constantly? That’s how it can seem to my brain. That is why you may see a lot of autistics wearing headphones or earbuds. Okay, the whole world seems to wear them, but the whole world is not autistic. How I learn something new can be different. I can pick up languages relatively quickly, but learning a new system may take a bit longer, particularly if I am taught in a haphazard manner.

For example, if you start a new job, would you rather have a training plan where you cross off each new skill or procedure? Or would you be okay with your trainer picking a topic at random, or even worse saying they had covered something without giving you the chance to confirm it?

Hang on a sec, all that is not that different from non-autistics … Let’s revisit that one later, shall we?

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